Biting Off More Than You Can Chew

Dark Nights

Received mid-2021

The message today is about what happened in this mind [points to himself] when it bit off more than it could chew, as you could say. Bit into the wrong apple and fell from the garden to the harsh underside of the earth. I spent the better part of 4 years down in those dungeons but that is a story I will reserve for another time. The dark night is long when it comes for those who find themselves walking it. But for those who carry a flame within, the encroaching darkness becomes the very canvas on which their light paints its emergence.

How else does one understand what it is to walk in the light but by walking through the shadow? Walking through the shadow sometimes leaves you forlorn and despondent, feeling as if you have fallen or lost your way. There is no losing one's way, for every way is the way. As one with light walks down the dark path, they are learning to discern and to recognise the path of light.

You see, when a dog does not feel well, it eats the grass, and in eating the grass, it causes itself to become sick and vomit in order to cleanse from the inside out. Likewise, when you are called to this work, at times it is as if you fall into darkness, but it is only so that you can consume it and clean it. And in cleaning it, it cleans you, before you purge it out, transformed.

That is what it is to bite into the apple. It is to see through the mist and unveil the mystery as clarity. Sometimes when you pray for clarity, you uncover chaos. If you persist in your petition with light in the heart, then you proceed to the eye of the storm.

The path is about never straying too far from the stillness of the storm. To be able to bear it but not become burdened by it. To be able to walk it without fear of fumbling or losing your direction. To be able to feel everything that needs to be felt without getting stuck or muddled in identifying with the emotion.

It is a very fine line to walk and takes time to navigate the subtle nuances of the inner realms. But if you have trust in the navigation system—in the guiding light of the heart—then even when you seem to spin in circles, the direction is still on point.

The point opens when you enter into it. 

The doorway is right here. 

The hour of opening is right now.